Still lost...

So, a week ago I quit my job at the Fifties Grill & Dairy.  My co-workers weren't friendly and my working environment wasn't the healthiest.  Not only was I not happy working there but I was having a hard time not being more social.  I prefer to be social and I think it is the only way I will be happy in a work environment. 

Today I went job hunting.  I still am clueless as to what I can do in Jamestown and I feel incomplete.  I am not satisfied just sitting here and doing nothing at my house but I feel like there is really nothing I can do to better my cause.  Obviously, this is me being lazy and what not.  I have applications from the local hospital and retirement home... as well as a video game store.  Wide variety.  I guess I would like to work at the retirement home because I like talking with elderly  people.  I don't know how ever how well I will cope if anyone I became close to passed away.

But I suppose that is me being selfish.  Who knows where I am going to end up?  On a happier note Kostya told me that he will be able to stay in America until September 15.  Since his appointment at the embassy to get his visa is August 8, he should hopefully be able to get a plane ticket soon after.  The longer the stay, the better!!  I can't wait to show him all the great things about America... but also prove to him that America isn't as amazing and luxurious as it is made out to be.

There is still poverty and there is still suffering.  Obviously I am not suffering from either since I am able to be on the internet so frequently in my home and I have no room to complain.  But I just think it isn't fair...

Baxter, Baxter, BAXTER!

I believe finding the person you love is like finding a gold pin among six billion silver.  It sounds impossible and I am sure after so much time the silver pins will seem gold... especially since you have no idea what shade of gold you are looking for.  Even if you think you know... as time goes by you could change your whole outlook.  But I think love only works at first sight.  If you don't love someone right away than how can you learn to love them?  It can only be meant to be when both people feel those crazy sparks and almost throw up from the tension.  

But there is more than one type of love... at any rate I still believe the "love at first sight" applies to all love.  I know when I first saw this little boy I was in a trance.  Gorgeous brown eyes and light brown hair! What a winner!!!  Next I took a look at his future family.  Oh, there couldn't be a more perfect match!  Tyler and Ruth are the true description of love.  Its so obvious from their photo and story!!

In order to complete this perfect family sweet little Baxter needs to be rescued from Easter Europe.  As you can guess that entails quite a bit of money.  Being the broke 17 year old that I am, I can only advocate and pray for this lovely young couple and their future son Baxter!!  PLEASE HELP AND DONATE!! Or at least spread the word!!  Either way, it would be greatly appreciated.  Visit their blog Adding a Tadema and fall in love with their story.

Bellie's Surgery

SO, as I have mentioned, I have an adopted sister from Ukraine... and her name is Isabelle.  Being the average American family we had to give her a nickname... which turned out to be Bellie.  Anywho, today Bellie had surgery to correct about 85% of her teeth since they were so neglected the first three years of her life while she was in the orphanage.  If you are unaware, my sister has down syndrome. Down syndrome + three year old = no desire to have cavities and caps placed her teeth unless sedated.  Which calls for the typical aesthetics to put my Bellie under.

Everything went well and she is all good now... W00T!  On top that of that I was able to read an enchanting book about eternal love.  By the title I would have sworn it was about vampires... but in reality it was the opposite.  I am going to keep the title to my self since the book swears fate is the only way to go... and if you happen to stroll upon than I suppose fate led you that way. :) Pleasant blogging.

Lost Path

I feel so lost.  I don't know what to even do with myself.  I wish more than anything to return to Pathfinder Village ((home to those with down syndrome)) and to be with the residents.  Being that it is six hours away I think that is an impossible road at this point in my life.  I know I will return there and maybe some day I will return to work there... That is if all fails in Ukraine.  I miss the people I met there.  My Lee, my Nicholas... and the accompanying friends I was able to spend time there with such as Caleb and Molly.  

 ((Nicholas, Caleb, Me, Lee, Conor, Molly))'

When I was there I felt like I knew what I was doing and now I am lost.  I'm going to have to look for a local program that is similar to that at Pathfinder.  As it turns out I am currently having problems with my current job and maybe this is a sign that it is time to move on and find something I am more suited to.  I think I am more needed in a more social environment rather than a fast food restaurant.  Who knows?  I sure don't.  

Insomnia

So, I have returned for the third time today since all of my followers are thirsting for more!  Onward, with knowledge comes craziness, with craziness comes insomnia.  I'm not saying I'm a genius but I think I would be a pro at a random facts game.  So, every night when I lay down to sleep, I lay down to sleep for HOURS!  Do you know what it is like to tell yourself to think about nothing and then you become obsessed with the notion of thinking about nothing which than leads to a tangent AND in the long run your brain gets all fired up and you can't stop thinking and solving! I was once told  to think to myself:

"If I worry about this now, is it going to help me?"

Usually in the middle of the night at disgusting hours their isn't a single thing that I can do to help any cause.  What point is there in thinking about it?  And with this I still continue to think.  Even when I think about actually falling asleep I get scared!  It is kind of scary to think about... your brain is checking out of the real world and checking into dream central.  Creepy... I know.  Moral of the story, sleep is impossible for me and my endless mind.  Trust me, tonight I will continue to solve world peace in my head and I will continue to get no where.  

The Lococo Family

Never have I loved an entire family before!! For starters, this past weekend was the Reece's Rainbow 5 year reunion near Cooperstown, New York.  At first I had no idea what the whole trip was going to possess and what not.  All I originally expected was to meet up with other families who had adopted in the past.  Onward: So, the first day my family lugged to the camp we went straight to the Lococo's cabin.  To be honest, I didn't know much about them other than that they adopted a little girl named Julia and the eldest son had a blog called Speaking for the Silent ((here)) [[I am just awful with tangents]] BACK TO THE STORY! As soon as my family arrived they were more than welcoming and we were all showered with hugs.  Right off the bat many similarities were noticed between our two families.  Three boys, three girls, mom&dad, three adopted, and three biological.  Kinda crazy.  

Caleb - My fellow "oldest of the bunch" became a great friend and we were practically attached at the hip!!  I love how he isn't afraid to act himself and he LOVES children... and people with down syndrome.  We are practically twins ((when it comes to interests)) and we had so much fun!  He is a great photographer and I am patiently waiting to see his pictures!!!!!!! ((not really... I'm trying to hold my breath!!))

Lizzy - We had to pedal her little sister and my little sister around the camp... literally.  The contraption was a luxury for the younger two but for us, we suffered!! IT WAS SO HARD!! I love this girl!! Her fashion is pretty kickin to!

Josh - The man with all the information :) Josh has to be the most intelligent twelve year old I have ever met in my life!!! I miss his witty remarks and passion.

Gabby - She is just too cute.  Right away she fell in love with my two year old sister Sara and wanted to play big sister to her!! I could tell Gabby is a strong individual and wants to do things herself and on her own.  She claims she doesn't cry but I beg to differ. :)

Addisu - He is the most handsome little boy in the world!! He is so spunky!! He was always trying to run away and it made me laugh!

Julia - What a sweetheart!! Me and this little love bug played pat-a-cake and sang row,row, row your boat! SHE IS JUST A DOLL!! I wish she let me snuggle her more!!

Mr & Mrs. Lococo - What a happy pair!  Their family is just beautiful inside and out and I absolutely adore them!  

So, by the time our reunion had come to an end we were absolutely distraught by the notion of leaving one another.  Everyone was crying ((not Gabby :p)) and it was just heartbreaking.  My family and I cannot wait for our next meeting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Take care Lococo family :)

 

The Beginning ... or rather, the Middle

Well, as this is my first post and I am in the middle of so much that composes my life, I am really lost as to where to start.  I suppose I can start where my mom did when she decided to adopt from Ukraine.  At first, naturally, I was worried as to why my mother would chose such a desolate country to adopt from, and to be honest I was confused why she chose a little girl with down syndrome.  Don't get me wrong, I wasn't afraid of down syndrome, I was simply ignorant to what it actually entailed.  So, as you can guess, my family decided to follow through with the adoption.  In January of 2011, I went with my mom to Ukraine to bring my sweet Isabelle home.  Since I am obsessed with foreign countries ((perhaps need therapy)) I was extremely psyched to go such an unusual place.  Being the weirdo that I am, I fell in love with Ukraine.  I would marry Ukraine to be honest... But I'll get more into that later... Anywho, onward with the story, I met my precious sister, Bellie.

Who could not fall in love with such an angel!??!  Obviously, it was love at first sight.  Onward with the tale... SO some stuff happened in Ukraine that I will save for another post and eventually we made it home.  Mind you, waiting for my mother and I were my three brothers and one sister.  Almost six months later brings me to today... I have left out about a novel of events... but to compile it into one post would probably entail a one hit wonder or a post.  UNTIL NEXT TIME... thanks for reading thus far :)